Mama...

This little cutie pie...

                                           
                                just looked me straight in the eye...

and said "Ma Ma!" Be still my heart....

Home again...

I'm home with my two sweethearts today...Max woke up sick to his stomach and Callie had 3 shots yesterday afternoon - so I have two grumpy, yucky-feeling kiddos:( This winter has been extremely hard health-wise on us...it seems like as soon as we get over one thing, something else hits us and we are sick again! This has been our sickliest ( I know this isn't a real word!!:) winter yet!

I'm just snuggling with my babies - but I'll leave you with a few photos!! Hope everyone else is staying healthy this week!

End of my rope...

I've become a person I don't want to be. Not sure how to change it...sleep deprivation has turned me into a desperate, ready-to-snap-at-any-moment, depressed mama. I bite my husband's head off over any little thing, have no paitence with Max, feel myself dissolving into tears when Callie fusses. I promise this is not me. It's not who I was before and it's not who I want to be. It's not who my Father made me.

Callie is 6 months old and sleeps very little during the day. Each nap lasting 10-20 min...1 in the morning, 1 in the afternoon, and 1 in the evening. We are all sleeping by around 8:30 or 9 pm at night - then the fun begins. Callie wakes up about every 2 hours. She screams until we feed her...although sometimes she might only eat 1 ounce. Between the times that she wakes up screaming, she sleeps extremely lightly and very fitfully. Tossing and turning the ENTIRE time, back-and-forth, back-and-forth. I do not sleep thru this...so I lay awake waiting on her to wake up crying again. I can honestly say I get about 3 hours of sleep each night. And get up and go to work teaching children everyday, come home to all the household everyday stuff, and dread (yet pray... so torn) for bedtime to come.

Just being honest here, guys. I don't mean to sound grumpy, whiney, and annoying on here...but then again, I am all of these things right now. I can't stand my attitude and selfishness right now, but don't know how to turn things around. I'm really needing prayers right now - could you help me with that? I would soooo appreciate it!

So that this post is not a total downer, I will leave you with some pictures I've taken in the last month or so. Pictures always make things better, right??:)

Max with his 100th day of school stuff...

My little smiley girl...

My Grandpa Raber's 89th birthday celebration...

My little bball players:)

Janae and Callie

Me and my girl...

Kisses...