Monday, July 6, 2009

This small patch of land...

No land seems to be as precious as a piece of land you can call your own. The dreams that have been bouncing around in my head for years are coming closer to being a reality - I had so much to celebrate this 4th of July!!

To think that we are free - free to choose where we live, free to worship our God, free to state our opinons - still amazes me. I take it for granted all the time, but this 4th of July I was reminded just how blessed I am and how exciting the future looks because I am FREE! So this past weekend I've been dreaming of house plans, grass that needs mowing, a backyard so huge Max would never run out of room to run, a kitchen to bake in, horseback riding, fishing, rhino riding, a porch to decorate, splashing in a creek...things I haven't let myself dream about for over a year now.

When you lose everything and find yourself in more debt than you can ever imagine (left to you from someone else) you don't allow yourself to look ahead. You fight thru each day as if it were your last and just hope you can feed the little mouth that relies on you . You pray that you can pay the next bill that comes in the mail, crying when you balance your checkbook. You can't depend on anyone except God - you have to be independent and strong for yourself and your child. This has been my life for the past year - I'm not saying this in search of pity, only to explain how my dreams were put on hold...
But now I feel as if I'm getting back on my feet, things are getting easier, dreams are being realized again...and it feels amazing:) I hope everyone else had a great 4th of July!!

5 comments:

sarah said...

Congrats Abbie!! I hope your dreams all come true:) Love ya bunches and miss you so much.

Chelsa said...

i'm glad your dreams are back in sight and back in your mind! i'm so happy things are going well for you now Ab!! love ya girl!

Ashley said...

I wish for only the best in your future and dreams!! Sometimes it may take longer for things but I think that makes it much more worthwhile!!!

Brittany Janae said...

Aww.. Abbie, I love this post! I hope that all of your dreams come true...and I'm sure Max would love to roam around in that big yard one day!!

Tera said...

I was just thinking of you the other day...about how it's been a year now. Keep seeking Him and He will give you the desires of your heart. Love you!!