No land seems to be as precious as a piece of land you can call your own. The dreams that have been bouncing around in my head for years are coming closer to being a reality - I had so much to celebrate this 4th of July!!
To think that we are free - free to choose where we live, free to worship our God, free to state our opinons - still amazes me. I take it for granted all the time, but this 4th of July I was reminded just how blessed I am and how exciting the future looks because I am FREE! So this past weekend I've been dreaming of house plans, grass that needs mowing, a backyard so huge Max would never run out of room to run, a kitchen to bake in, horseback riding, fishing, rhino riding, a porch to decorate, splashing in a creek...things I haven't let myself dream about for over a year now.
When you lose everything and find yourself in more debt than you can ever imagine (left to you from someone else) you don't allow yourself to look ahead. You fight thru each day as if it were your last and just hope you can feed the little mouth that relies on you . You pray that you can pay the next bill that comes in the mail, crying when you balance your checkbook. You can't depend on anyone except God - you have to be independent and strong for yourself and your child. This has been my life for the past year - I'm not saying this in search of pity, only to explain how my dreams were put on hold...
But now I feel as if I'm getting back on my feet, things are getting easier, dreams are being realized again...and it feels amazing:) I hope everyone else had a great 4th of July!!