Friday, September 19, 2008

I believe...

Yeah!!!!!!!! It's FRIDAY:)!! I'm looking forward to this weekend - it's gonna be super busy! Tonight we are going to church with Gil, then tomorrow I am photographing a wedding, and on Sunday we are having a big family get together for my dad's birthday. I'm sure I'll have lots of new pic.s to post on Monday.

This week has been pretty rough on me...I just continue to get unexpected phone calls about things Gil has done in the past few months (that I was oblivious to), I have been packing up the things in my house (moving is the pits!), and then some of the people I thought loved me the most are questioning how I am dealing with the situation I am faced with. That is what hurts me the most, because all I can say is that I'm taking one day at a time and leaning not on my own understanding...but God's! I take that back - there is no LEANING going on - he is CARRYING ME!! When I think about who has abadoned me at the time I need them the most, I just remember this verse:

Romans 8:31-39: What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: " For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

NOTHING will seperate me from the love of God...no matter what people say to me, no matter who puts me down, no matter how "wrong" my actions seem to some - "you don't know me, you don't wear my chains"(from the song Boston by Augustana). I just have to believe in God first and foremost...and also believe in myself and the decisions I make.

5 comments:

Jamie said...

Amen Sista!!! Have a great weekend.

Chelsa said...

Abbie- Don't let people get you down. You seem so strong- and your faith will get you through. God is the only person you have to answer to! Ryan & I are praying for you.

Chasity said...

I hope those who are questioning your actions realize now how strong of a person you are. Funny isn't it that those accusing you of being easily swayed by your family's opinions are trying to foist their own opinions/beliefs on you? Crazy huh?! love ya girl!

Tanya Henry said...

hey abs... im so sorry to hear about everything you are going through... i wish i could be closer to you and be there for you more... i want you to know that i am at least one of those people that your blog is blessing somehow somewhere... :) and i am praying for you and that adorable little boy... i hope i can come down sometime soon and let our boys play together... love ya abs...

p.s. this is a scripture i found years ago... it touched me so much that i got it tatooed on my back... and i will never forget it... i thought you might like it since you wrote "He is carrying you"... Isaiah 46:4, Even to your old age I am He, And even to gray hairs I will carry you! I have made, and I will bear; Even I will carry, and will deliver you.

Tomi said...

Hi Abbie, I just started reading your blog. I am sorry to hear you are having a difficult time. I admire your courage and strength. More people should allow God to guide them like you are. We will keep you in our prayers.