as hard as I tried to make my life look like a fairytale, the more problems kept creeping up. I used to drive myself insane with looking at blogs and wanting to have "perfect lives" like what I was reading about. I wanted the perfect looking kids, with perfect looking clothes, in brand-new houses full of brand-new perfect looking stuff.
The more I learn about life and the more I dig into God's word, I have decided I'm more than o.k. with my imperfections...with Max's imperfections, with our life full of imperfections. My marriage to Gil definantly did not end like a fairytale...and is far from "happily ever after..." But that's o.k. with me now, in Psalm 119: 71 it says "It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees."
I love this verse...cause it makes me think - "What??? It was GOOD for me to be afflicted????" That's crazy, right?? Not really, the more I think about it, the less crazy it sounds - cause when I'm at my lowest is when God draws me the nearest. Well, God always holds me near but I seem to feel his embrace more when I am afflicted.
When I was a little girl I read all the books and watched all the movies about the princesses - staring at their gorgeous dresses and wanting to dance with the prince one day. Well - guess what? I'm making my own fairytale...and one day I will dance with my Prince - He is getting me thru all this junk that happens in real life so that one day I can go to Heaven and have my first dance with Him. Just how magical does that sound?? Better than any fairytale ending I could ever come up with on my own...