Thursday, October 2, 2008

Look up, look up, look up...

So the meeting didn't go well last night...I'm still really struggling to find peace with the decisions I have to make about my family.
I thought I was going to a meeting to get updates on Gil, talk about his progress, and figure out our next step. Instead - I felt "set-up" after listening to a lecture for 40 min. about how I made a commitment to my husband and I need to honor that, that God does not believe in divorce, and I need to keep this family together. I cried thru the whole meeting, all the way home, thru a hot shower...and then fell into bed completely and totally drained emtionally.

I just feel so much weight on my shoulders - I know right from wrong. I know that divorce should not be an option, I know that I made a commitment...and I don't want to make excuses! So I won't.
But pray for me...I am fighting the hardest battle of my life - and at times I feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water!! I just keep telling myself: look up, look up, look up...

6 comments:

Leah Robinson said...

Abbie, what is your email address? I'd love to talk to you...but not on a public blog :)

Jamie said...

Abbie...God will never give you more than you can bear...he promised us that...and you know that he has a purpose for all this...you have to keep your faith strong and let him work through you...through Max...you will be a better person in the end...really. I'll keep you in my prayers...

Abby said...

Abbie, we definately will keep you in our prayers. You are going through something that no one deserves, and God is gonna get you through it. Stay strong girl, you are a wonderful beautiful mother and that is the most important thing for you to continue right now!

Lauren said...

I found a few passages of scripture that might help.

Psalm 123

and Isaiah 40:26...

"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens: who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of His great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing."

If He cares that each star is placed where it should be, how much more does He care for you, Miss Abbie? You are much more valuable to Him than both stars and sparrows. Look up, Look up, Look up!!

Praying for you,
Lauren

Chelsa said...

Abbie- I won't pretend to even begin to know what you're going through, but I do know that God loves you and although sometimes you might wonder if you can take anymore, God won't give you more than you can handle. You've been on my heart so much. I'm sorry that your mtg. didn't go well. I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

Tera said...

Abbie, call me when you're up to it. ((big hugs)) in the meantime.